Retro Fever

Friday, July 07, 2006

din go sports carnival. hahs. dun give shit abt that pls.

just came back frm nowhere in particular. cck actually. with ben. watched recycle and i din like the show. i nvr did really like horror movies anw. made out during the show. it was fierce. hahs.

ate tempura.currypuffs.greenapplegreentea.

later i pissed him off many times. but i was seriously pissed with him. saying that if i went to meet cheryl then he wun go with me. wtF. like who are u to say this lar? and why walk away when u come running back to throw tantrums on me later? i know u want me to chase after u, but so sorry. pple change, things change. and so does jo. i prefer to see u walk away frm me, then turn and leave myself. tts wad i consiously chose. shrugs.

sometimes i really think we will nvr work out. coz of the problems. abt friends, my thinking, ur actions. im sighing now ler.

so i have decided. nextym u wan u follow. duwan then piss off.

was okay later. coz he kissed me after tt. i said it as a joke later but i was seriously unhappy at the time when we were sitting at the stairs. and why that stupid look when i mouthed the last tempura? shocked that i gobbled it up? or wad? but u say u duwan eat de mah.

and just now. eric called to irritate me. he pissed me off lar. fcuker.

another few updates.

i got 61 for LIT. a Bgrade pls.
i failed maths. failed ben. failed myself. was really damn sad when i got back the paper. i know this is not my usual behaviour abt failing maths. but now its JC, and H1 maths, and ben taught m alot the day beofre the paper. feeling shitty can. till now when i think of it, i think i should go revise maths, or rather practise maths. noody revise maths de lor. except me. damn. feel like im stupid. esp when ben raised his voice at me in the library while teaching me.

my legs aching, its painful but still going for training tmr. the sandflies following Shah was hilarious and freak. his hairgel attracts them like supeglue lar.and the flies are not 10-20. they are a hive of flies pls. scary.

and Shah taught us basics of 3-punch and speed. i din noe there were still alot to learnt. hais. im thinking highly of myself again. somehow dawne pisses me off when she opens her mouth to speak. eEe.

i counted my spendings already. like ard 75bucks for 5 days. but i paid alot for other stuffs too. peggy shirt.tournament fee.bought stuff for ben.i think i must make it a habit to record spendings everyday.

i think ben is hiding alot frm me. coz he duwan me to know and think alot. im cleverer than u think i am. i know alot of things pls. dunid to hide coz ur friends will mention in their blogs.
and im sad not becoz there's nth to make me happy. i lied to u just now. im low coz i know u hide alot frm me. asking SER to go NP when i cant go. like wtF. nvm. hahs. laugh things off, i will feel better. coz im scorning at u again.

and SER dp is pissing me off. damn fcuker. fcuk off . all of u. even u, creature. coz i love u. yet u make me angry and sad and dissapointed, and losing hope everyday when i thought i held on to some. get wad i mean?

well, enough complains..many others love me. nt only u. and i can live without u. i know i can.

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