ProveMeWrongThen//``
and it aint right. coz i have ben. still fiercely in love with ben.
plus the thing that i cant let things happen again with dory.
im afraid u will be lyk junru. tt bastard.
and ben. i cant help it but reject u again and again. coz it hurts either way. we have too many problems on hand. that am afraid to patch back in case i lose u again.
actually im confused. but i know smth for sure. Jh, i would have given us a chance if there wernt ben. he got here earlier. i realised smth, love must happen at the right time and place. wad i wan to say here, is that, not i duwan, its that i cant. i cant. im sry.
staying ard a person for long will gradually leads to love? i duno, coz it happened with me and ben.
the thing stopping me is..
1) ben. i cant let him go. he still needs me.
2) me afraid of knowing another guy. its a long process, of trust, of friendship, of shared moments. of everything. and some part of me is reluctant to go thru this process all over again.
3) i promised alot to ben, to myself. it will be betrayal if i be with jh.
why cant things be simple betwn us.