About ME:
josephine.ze
17gonnabe
25th july
NYJC J1 Art.student TouChruGGer<33
complicated.
Click to MAIL me.
MY LOVES:
that creature.
the gang from KSS.
touCh.
WISHLIST:
a family photo.
my own house.
learn to love my bro.
to be happy, whether single or attached.
DEADLINES:
get my PHYSICAL up for tournaments.
PPT for joce. 25july.
buy LG CHOCOlATE hp for dad. 22 AUG.
THE WANTS:
orange adidas jackie.
new bag.
NUM Top.
diji CAM.
a beautiful hp.
BLACK bedsheets coupled with ORANGE pillow casing.
new MP3.
Friday, August 04, 2006
ytd nite was a nightmare. u blardy fucking crossed the line. i can assure u, if u were standing right in front of me. i would have given u a tight slap across ur face.
he betrayed my trust in him. he saw the links on wed but i din change it. seriously, i regretted in placing too much trust in him. it makes me feel that im too naive, too stupid, too gullible to have actually believe that he aint gonna try. he really made me feel like am the biggest fool on earth. to have even let my guard down on him.
i thought i told myself to not drown in his love once more. to protect myself, to not be hurt once more. but i let my guard dwn on him. after the brkup, i tot i knew how to protect myself already. i was wrong abt this..so wad happen ytd nite, i was hurt, cried, yelled at him, was madly angry. in the end i learnt frm it.
frm now on, i swear that i will be goddamn wary of him.
i will nvr explain to him abt this. coz he doesnt deserve it. and he deserve it, crying all nite. brought it upon himself. yes, i do love him, but ytd nite, i hated him to the core. he destroyed everything. he doesnt noe how much this blog means to me. how i pour all my thoughts in here. after he fcuking brokeup with me, i have treated this blog as my diary, my personal space. now i feel fcuking violated. inside out. everything. and he is the one who is behind all my internal struggles. i set up the blog was becoz of u, most of the content was my very very private thoughts, my inside, my soul. and u ripped everything out just becoz u claimed u miss me.
i feel damn wasted now, as in i am damn unhappy, and i wan to do smth back to him. violate his space too. make him feel wad i feel now. it aint fair to me when i love u so much.
so wad if i mentioned junhao in my blog. so wad? its becoz we were having too much problems tt i turned towards him for abit. yes, i admit, i did waver for awhile. but i was intent on loving u the way i always have. but the thing u did, made me realise i should not love u too much frm now on.
i will make u build everything up. frm scratch. frm the bottom. to get back wad u want. i cant always forgive u easily everytime u fcuking make a mistake.
and when the moment i knew he knew, i went crazy. switched off hp and went online to change the link immediately. that was lke 2am ytd morning. later i still fcking remain on the fone with him.
the truth is, thou i went out with him. i did not forgive him at all. yes, i can give us another chance, but that doesnt mean that i forgave him on this incident. he is just fcuking showing no respect for me. at all. and how do i love someone who doesnt respect me? i still haven forgive u, ur still on probation pls. show me smth.
this time, u committed a crime. against me. against ur morals. against our love. lets see how u repair it.
ProveMeWrongThen//``
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